A Lost Soul

I fell in love with this man once,
he was a wonderful man,
caring, kind, considerate,

we shared our dreams,
our hopes, and our futures,
or so I thought.

he would talk about the beaches
and the times we would share
talk of the snow
and cuddling by a fire
but it was not real.

it was all an illusion
for underneath lay a fire
ready to boil over

a fire of evil and hate
just waiting to be set free

suddenly gone was the love
the hugs and the kisses

replaced with harsh words
which cut like a knife

he no longer called me sweety
and thought my views were important
now I am just another tree hugger
as he put it in his prejudice

when I said asked how he could hurt me
he said he was not that
he said it was just honest

and when I asked why he never
called me things before
since he knew how I felt
from a long time before

he could not answer me

he told me he had never lied
but that is not true

her heart does just stop
and everyone stares
everyone knows
just how much she still cares

for this man standing there
in the balcony high
she runs into his arms
and lets out a sigh

her new groom is a wreck
this day is a mess
there she stands in his arms
in her new wedding dress

a return from the grave
or so it may appear
his sight such a shock
causing eyes to tear

told he had been lost
in a far away land
when the plane went down
in the desert sand

several years had past
since that tragic night
all those lonely moments
every sleepless night

now asking him the question
where was he all those years
she was sitting home
eyes swelled up with tears

he answered with a kiss
then gently he says
a prisoner of war
half a world away

i dreamt of you my love
and of my sweet return
only to be free
and of your wedding learn

now i ask my one true love
do you love me still
if you don't i understand
i can leave if that's your will

no she cries you are my love
the one that's always true
turning to Jim she sadly says
i cannot marry you

my husband's alive
return from the dead
back into my life
so i am already wed

in that sweet little moment
Jim's dreams fell apart
yet he is happy for them
they have a new start

Jim turns to the crowd
and shouts to them all
a toast to the couple
as the rice starts to fall

they wave to the people
as the rice still comes down
they stand hand in hand
him in his jeans her in her gown

just one last thing
Jim calls out to Stan
please enjoy this
handing him the honeymoon plan

he told me he cared
no one who cared
would ever spout words
with an edge sharp as a knife

he said things to hurt me
even after I said they hurt
and yet he never stopped to think

did he ever really care about me
I think he did
or I would like to hope he did

something changed him
an evil from deep inside
a fear pent up for too long perhaps

now as he begins his tirade
thinking he alone is of the superior
race
and that all those of other colors
or backgrounds are lesser people

he will stand alone

as will I

again

scared

crying

and wishing I again had that man
to hold my hand
walk on the beach
kiss goodnight
and call my sweet.


AmyMarie 9/13/01